Dear Reader
It has been more than a year since I last
visited this space. A space that I have a lot of blessings in my life due to it
,a bit of growing up had to be done before I could share my little experiences
that I was going through as I
myself had got to a point of depletion . Those odd +/- 17000 views that had
been loyal dwellers of this space will know that it has always been a space of
honesty and truth. The inception of this space happened just when I had started
my journey in university; do mind you I must have been a teenager at that time.
All it ever promised to be was an online diary of a young teen. So all I had to
offer this space was an opinion through my lens on topics such as life, music, growth,
love and fashion. It’s when the numbers started coming in and I found myself
landing jobs such as being a Regional Trend Spotter for a popular American
cigarette brand, as well as heading/founding up a social media campaign for a major retailer at that time
that I had to start taking this
space and title of blogger seriously. It’s here I believe I lost it. As we all
know in life there is never just one thing to focus on, my greatest battle at
the time was that I was growing up and re-shaping my identity as well as
re-questioning all that I thought I knew was cast in stone. A lot of
fundamental shifts happened during those years but still I toiled on posting
rather half-empty frivolous stuff on this space that I thought were relevant. Most
of all that I assumed you wanted to read and know, as let’s face it circa
2012-2014 everybody fancied themselves a blogger/writer. It was only when all
the truths that I had learnt about life and all in between through a very
intense self-introspective journey (years) I found out that I could no longer pollute the cyber space
with my untruths in search of relevance and validification. My wondering had
started to pay-off and questions that mattered dear reader were being answered.
The realisation that I had now turned this
space which had been intended to be an online journal that never had the
superficial solace of relevance/trends/fame /numbers ,into a space that had
been reduced to “outfit-of-the-day” posts that carried zero depth brought me to
a standstill .As the truth of the matter was that it mirrored how I as a person
had sold myself to a being of empty appraisals and frivolous self. Do not get
me wrong there is nothing wrong in indulging into the caresses of consumerist
fashion and but what if these space could now cause more of a frenzy on more
ideas of fashion with consciousness. What if more of our insta-bloggers and
“stylists” made issues such as “fair traded” and “locally sourced” as relevant,
as their “OOTD” posts.
But alas I at that time had amalgamated
myself into a packet of all the gay stereotypes that could deem me popularity
or a quick read. So I stopped blogging as I needed to replenish and focus on
all the growing/transitions that were happening in my life but most of all I
had to unlearn all that I had learnt to be .Feeding the digital manifestation
of that person that I had become would have been self-destructing to the space
I was trying to attain and call home.
Fast forward to now and ask me why I choose
to re-enter this space? It’s mainly cause of the personal space that I now call
home. It’s more allowing to share, as I now occupy spaces that I had always
envisioned myself to occupy, as a multiple graduate and a maritime industry
employee for a multi-national corporation who chooses to be enchanted by the
flirtations of popular culture and fashion. I can now offer my opinions knowing
very well that they are not searching for a hit. Although I would not say I
have reached full capacity I have enough life experiences to offer nuances that
hopefully shall probe you into asking yourself about your own journey.
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