I Sort Of Want To Say ......

                                           See I sort of wanna say I'm "tired ",

                           but I can't as this is a word that has seized to exist in my vocabulary.

                           Tired is a word that seems like a cocktail drenched in the finest ingredients of ....

A pinch of failure , spoonful of meaningless drenched with a sauce of you feeling worthless 

                        all coming together to spew out of a volcano named  self-defeat....

                                  See I still wanna say I'm sort of "Tired" but I can't ...

                                                  I sort of wanna just say "Fuck It"

           but every time that thought comes up chimes of that dime filled place named "Success"... 

                                             I'm headed to sort of start ringing.

      When they ring they have a tendency of ringing so loud with a melodic tunes of godly promises

                          that may seem so sweet but have a tendency of awakening this monster in me.

               See this jabber-wocky of a creature is one that haunts me 365 days of my life

                    not a minute departing without him creeping to remind me of his wishes ...

He really is a nasty beast that consumes and dines on me so much so I named him {AM}-BITION.

       See I sort of wanna say I'm tired but he keeps me up at night as he haunts me ,constantly reminding that             within in him lives me.....So much so I {AM}-bition